It became such an everyday thing that I forgot

It became such an everyday thing that I forgot why I wanted to go back. I got so stuck and stressed and sick of India and MUWCI and everything about living in a boarding school. I forgot why I came originally and why this, as one of my closest friends reminded me, is also the reason why I want to go back.
I broke down today while I was packing. I really did not want to go back to that stressful, hectic everyday with people who steals your food and cutlery, the mess and everything that comes with living with 200 people between the age of 15 and 20. I forgot all the good things in the panic the reason why I wanted to go there for 4 years before I actually went. People from all over the world, friends at every corner of the planet, international people with different backgrounds and therefore very different ways of living and thinking. The opportunity it was and still is how could I ever think of leaving it? Just that little reminder from a friend was enough to make me remember and again really want to go back.
When things look the darkest please do not forget to see the light and if you can’t ask someone to help you. They might be able to see something your eyes are too fogged to see…